Author: Magrat
Rating: NC-17.
Disclaimer: Not mine; I would have treated them better.
Note: You've had Tara thoughts these are Willows. The conversation won't be exact, as two people tend to remember events in slightly different ways.

I feel like a nervous wreck. I have been waiting in this smoky bar for almost an hour, its not that I don't think Tara will turn up, it's more whether she will agree to what I have planned for her.

She enters. I watch as she shoots me a look, grabs a drink and goes and sits in a quiet corner. I close in behind. "I've missed you, once a week is not enough," I sit on her lap and start to kiss her neck and almost by magic my hands are on her shirt fumbling with the buttons.

"Not here," said Tara.

I take a deep breath here goes everything "I've waited so long for you. I want you so much. I know we can't go to your dorm room or you come to my house so I hope you won't mind but I have booked a hotel room."

She looks at me in surprise and utters just one word. "O-okay."

I'm elated. "You won't regret this," I tell her, "I promise you a good time." I pull her quickly from the bar the excitement growing within me.

The hotel clerk leers at us as I ask take her up the stairs to the room I've prepared but I couldn't care less. I just can't wait to get Tara up those stairs.

As we enter the room she turns to me "I shouldn't be doing this."

I feel my heart start to sink everything is so raw and fragile. We probably shouldn't be doing this, sneaking about behind our friends back but I need this and I think she does too, so I just let passion take over and start to kiss her probing my tongue into her mouth I can feel her breathing quicken and I know I have snagged her.

"I want to show you something." I remember her once telling me about a fantasy she had about fucking in a totally tiled bathroom with no cubicle or bath in it and I searched the whole of Sunnydale to find exactly what I was looking for. "You like?" I ask her.

Her blue are huge filled with lust and while I have her attention I start to put on an impromptu strip tease for her. I wouldn't normally be so bold but the way she is looking at me like she could eat me all up is more than reward for my boldness.

I push her against the wall. "You are too over dressed," and with this I start to undress her. She is shivering and I insist she goes under the shower. I start to soap her wonderful body. I love her full breasts and they way she reacts when I pull her hard nipples.

She starts to undress me and pulls me into a passionate embrace, I cry out as she bites my lip. Tara isn't normally this rough but it seems to suit the moment and I'm even more surprised to feel her fingers enter me. She stops and looks into my eyes god I need her to do this. I start to plead with her.

"Open your eyes and tell me what you want," said Tara.

"Tara fuck me please," I just about have the strength to whisper. She obliges moving quick and hard inside me and keeping a hard pressure on my clit. I don't think I have ever been fucked like this before and it takes me all my strength to stay on my feet as she leads me towards my orgasm.

As I recover not really able to understand how she managed to turn the tables on me but feeling so unbelievably elated at what she did to me. The secret Tara always seems to want to hide from the world is how sexy and passionate she is, but I don't mind as long as I have her to myself.

Here comes the big part I hope I have the nerve and she has the trust in me to go through with it so here goes. "Tara do you trust me?"

"Why?" she responds.

"I want to do something special for you but you have to trust me to make it work," I say hoping to reassure her. I lead her towards the bedroom where I have set out a few things on the bed. She starts to back away

"Your insane if you think I'm going to let you tie me up. I'm not into that," she said a shocked look on her face.

"Not in to what" I'm trying my best to hold things together I'm not sure if I can take her rejecting me.

"Into what ever you've got planned," said Tara breaking my heart in two.

I start to babble anything to be able to have my baby where I want her. "I'll stop when ever you want you can use a safe word I promise I want do anything to hurt you."

"Moon" said Tara

"What?" I replied not really able to take in what she just said to me. Does this mean she is going to let me?

"My word is moon," said Tara.

My heart is racing I wasn't sure if she would really let me. I explain quickly what I'm going to do and she makes a joke, I think to hide her nerves, about me taking funny photos. I handcuff her hands to the headboard and use some silk scarves to restrain her feet. I blindfold her and push some earplugs into her ears. Sensory depravation, it's supposed to give you this huge head rush, I know I haven't got the most sophisticated toys but I'm hoping it'll work.

I know I have to sit back now and watch over her, it'll take her a while to get to where I want her, but to honest I could sit here all night looking at her, she looks so beautiful and I can't believe I almost threw all this away.

I take some things out of my bag a feather, a piece of fake fur, an antique silver hairbrush and I got to the mini-bar and remove a tray of ice cubes. What to use first, I know I have to keep changing the sensations to make it more intense.

I start with the feather just gently down her thigh. She jumps her back arching. I apply an ice cube to her nipple and I am rewarded with a groan. I use the hairbrush on her next; this brings out an amazing reaction from her moving her hips and groaning in real pleasure. I gently stoke her clit with the fur; she is trying so hard to rub herself against it that I fear she will pull the headboard off. I then use everything quickly try to bring her to a crescendo of feelings.

I try my best, but I can't resist it and I move my mouth over her hard clit. I love going down on her she tastes and smells so good. I love to do it first thing in the morning so that I can have her faint scent on me all day. Her clit is so hard and she is so wet. I slip two fingers inside her and just fuck her hard. It doesn't take long before I can feel her clit throbbing in my mouth. Her back arches as she comes hard in my mouth.

I pull away and look down at her and to my dismay she has started to cry. I untie her and cradle her in my arms crooning her back to this reality. I get ready to apologise to her, thinking maybe I had gone too far, but instead she starts to tell me how wonderful I was. My chest heaves with love and pride at being able to put my self at this woman's service.

The clock catches my eye. "Shit its eleven thirty, bugger it, I'm going to stay here the night." I look into her eyes "Stay with me."

"I can but you know you can't," said Tara.

I have an idea I pick up the phone. "Hi Buffy I'm glad I caught you before you went on patrol. I'm going to stay the night with my parents, as their house is closer. See you, give my love to Dawnie."

I turn to Tara but can't get any words out as she is standing looking at me in a most provocative way the handcuffs dangling from one finger.

"I guess that means I have time to play with you," said Tara.

I lie back on the pillow. "Do what you want"

She fastens my hands to the headboard. "Your happy to let me do anything?"

"I trust you."

She looks at me her pupils are dilated "Let me see what you have in your bag of tricks," she goes to the bag and pulls out an item I was going to use but forgot all about. "You were going to fuck me with this?" she asks her eyes flashing.

She has a leather harness and a silicon dildo in her hand. I just nod not sure if she is angry with me or not. I know she likes penetration, but maybe I've taken it too far.

She kneels between my legs I feel very vulnerable. She takes the tip of the dildo and starts to rub it against the wet lips of my pussy. I move to try and get it to rub against my clit but she carefully avoids this and instead teases me for some minutes. She then pushes a couple of fingers inside me I gasp wanting more.

"Your so wet, I think you need more," said Tara her voice hoarse with passion and lust. She pushes one then and another finger inside and almost as suddenly withdraws.

"Tara, please don't tease me anymore," I cry.

"I'm not teasing I am going to do something to you I've never done before," Tara replies.

I watch as she opens the tube of lube that I had brought with me and covers her hand with it. She enters me finger after finger and then to my surprise she curls her thumb inside. I've never felt so full as she starts to me fuck me gently with her whole fist. It feels wonderful like she has total possession of me.

She catches my eye. "Tell me that that pretend dick could feel better than this?"

"Never," I breathe

She smiles and her beautiful mouth goes to join her hand and I come so hard I think I will lose consciousness.

She lets me out of the handcuffs. I apologise to her if I have upset her with the dildo.

"No apology needed, in fact maybe we can use it another night" said Tara with a wicked smile on her face.