Buffy and Faith had finally gone home, not that I didn't want them here but I really needed time to relax, time to think about today's events.
I made a nice cup of tea and put on my fuzzy PJs, the ones I wore when I was sad or just needed a breather from the world, they were warm and comfy and they just made me feel safe - you know those type of PJs. I threw a movie D.E.B.S. into the DVD player and sat back to relax and enjoy the movie. I didn't have work tomorrow due to it being a Sunday wasn't much going on, on Sundays so I figured I would just stay up late and fall asleep by the TV.
About twenty minutes into the movie I started to doze off, a soft rapping on my door brought me back to life, I looked at the clock and noticed that it was nearly 2am and wondered who the hell it could be, Buffy and Faith hadn't forgotten anything that I knew of and well none of my neighbors really spoke to me unless they were drunk or really needed to borrow something.
I slowly rose from the couch, wondering if I should just let the knocking persist or if I should just answer it and see what the hell the crazy person wanted.
I decided to see what the hell the crazy person wanted and I slowly lifted the hatch to see who was in the hall, but my height had always been a slight problem in this apartment, because I wasn't tall enough to see out the hatch, so instead I yelled out. "Who is it?" I asked my voice slightly nervous.
I heard soft chuckling on the other side and wondered what the hell the person was thinking knocking on my door at 2am to stand there and laugh, stupid prank. "If you don't go away or answer me I'm calling the cops!" My voice got stronger and more willed just so the person on the other side would believe me.
Then I heard a dog bark and wondered what the frig was going on, I slowly slid the door back, holding a baseball bat in my hand making sure if the person tried pushing their way past I could knock them over the head before they could try something.
"What the FUC..." I was stunned, there she was Tara and her dog standing at my door, Tara was in a hoodie and jeans and the dog well she wasn't wearing clothes cause real dogs don't wear clothes.
"K," Tara finished off what I was about to say for me with a small smile playing on her lips.
Before I could ask her if everything was alright or if she had lost her ever loving mind she started talking "well you see I took Zoey here out for a walk, and well we were walking past where you live and I seen a glowing coming from the window and I figured you were awake so we thought by chance if we stopped by maybe we could say hi to you" She smiled a thousand watt smile and my anger went away quickly, sometimes even after all these years she was just to cute.
"So, umm. Hi," she smiled and waved and I looked down to see Zoey sitting on her butt waving her paw at me as well and I couldn't help but chuckle, then Tara started to walk away.
"Tara!" I called after her, she stopped to look and I smiled. "Hi," I waved back and she laughed. "Come in for a tea?" I asked, I was slightly tired but not to tired to talk to Tara. All the while Faith's words were crossing my mind, she had a lot to do to prove herself once more.
"Are you sure, we didn't want to bug you, we just wanted to say 'hi'. We only knocked lightly in case you were sleeping." Tara looked slightly nervous now, I wondered what she was thinking to just stop by to say hi then leave, I wondered if she was actually thinking when she decided to knock.
"I'm sure Tara, come on in..." I lowered myself down to Zoey's level. "You wanna come in don't ya pup!?" I asked and Zoey wiggled her tail and pounced on me licking my face all over I laughed softly, it had been a while since I was around a dog. "I think I might even have a bone laying around for you from when I babysat James!" And at the mention of bone the dog went crazy and barged through my front door.
"Well now that you mentioned bone we have to otherwise Zoey won't let me leave," Tara smiled and stepped through the door kicking off her sneakers.
"That wouldn't bother me," I whispered under my breath, and I think Tara heard me cause she stopped mid step and tilted her head watching me.
I stood quickly and walked over to the drawer that I knew the bone was in from last month and pulled it out giving it to Zoey, before I went into the kitchen to put the pot of tea on.
"Make yourself at home," I yelled as I ran down the hall realizing that I was still in my bright pink fuzzy PJ's, I had to change and had to change fast.
"Okay." Tara looked quizzical as I took off like a bolt of lightening. After a few moments I came out wearing sweats and a tee, Tara laughed.
"I liked the fuzzy pink PJs," Tara smirked and oh god I thought my heart would explode at that smirk, I hadn't seen it in years, but it was the same as always, mischievous, and sexy all wrapped up into one.
"Well ya know, I thought that maybe Zoey there might think I was a squeak toy and try to chew on me." It was a total lie but I didn't want to tell Tara that I changed cause I didn't want her thinking I was a goof. Tara laughed, her whole body shaking I guess she got the image of Zoey trying to eat me.
"It's not funny, what if that happened!" I pouted slightly and she reached over with her hand and ran her thumb gently across my bottom lip, I don't even think she thought about it, it seemed so natural.
My body shivered at the touch and she pulled her hand away quickly. "I'm so sorry," she said as she stood walking over to her shoes.
"I should go," she whispered lowering her head thinking I would be angry.
"Don't go," I whispered, even though I wanted to build the trust again, she was here and I didn't want her to leave.
"I really should, it's late," she whispered and looked at the clock which was now reading ten after 3, I couldn't believe that an hour went by like a blink of an eye.
"Where do you live?" I asked tilting my head wondering if she lived close, since she was on a walk with Zoey, she must have.
Tara lowered her head and blushed so much that ever her ears went beet red. "Quinton Road," she answered her voice quiet I almost didn't hear her.
I thought about it for a moment then my eye's went large. "Quinton Road?!" I was rather loud and I made the dog jump and Tara as well, "So just on a short stroll eh?" I laughed. "Tara Quinton Road is like a two hour walk from here!" I shook my head but crossed my arms over my chest and tapped my foot on the ground as I spoke my next line.
"You are not walking that far home this time of night," I said firmly. "Resolve face," and I pointed to my face and she laughed, tears in her eyes and I wasn't sure if they were tears from laughing so hard or tears from the memories of my resolve face from years before.
After a moment I realized it was because of the memories, I walked towards her, I reached my arms out and pulled her into them, and I held her as sobs racked her body I held her, I wasn't sure what else to do, I guess everything that has happened had hurt her too, and she finally was letting it all out.
"Shh," I soothed and ran my fingers through her hair and down her back "It's okay Tara." I didn't know what to say.
After a few moments she stopped crying, and looked up to me with a weak smile. "Sorry about that," she whispered after a moment of just looking into each others eye's...
"I really shouldn't stay Willow," Tara said as she pointed at Zoey.
"Oh don't worry about that, my friends Buffy and Faith have a dog named James," I said as I hurried into the kitchen and pulled out a food bowl and water bowl, also the bag of dog food a box of treats and a few toys.... Tara laughed at me and I smiled. "You were always ready for anything weren't you?" she asked with a smile as she walked into the kitchen and leaned against the wall.
"Yes I do now, I won't let you walk out that door, I'll kidnap your dog and you can't go." I smiled and crossed my arms again sticking my tongue out at her when she rolled her eyes.
"Okay, okay," Tara shook her head. "If you have some blankets and a pillow I'll make up the couch if that's alright?" Tara asked looking for a closet.
"I don't think so you walked two hours to come see me I'm not letting you sleep on the couch!" I stated and Tara's eyes went wide. "You can have the guest bedroom," I smiled, and she breathed a breath I don't think she realized she had been holding.
"Thanks Willow, we'll leave right away in the morning." I could tell she honestly felt bad and I knew she would have walked home if I hadn't have asked where she lived, I wasn't worried about it.
"I don't have work tomorrow so it's all good sleep in, maybe when we get up we can take Zoey here for a walk and talk some more?" I asked as we walked down the hall towards the guest bedroom, Zoey staying in the living room chewing her bone like there was no tomorrow.
"That would be nice," Tara sighed and smiled as she walked into the dark room behind me. I flicked the light before I realized what was sitting on the desk, I forgot totally that I had the picture of Tara on her Harley sitting on the desk, it was where I did my at home work, I kept her with me.
Tara walked over to the desk instantly and picked up the picture smiling softly she turned to look at me "You still have this?" she asked a surprised look on her face.
"I told you I never stopped loving you," I sighed, wondering if she would be upset or freaked out that I had it still and displayed it proudly.
"Yes you did, and Willow I never stopped loving you either you know," she whispered as she walked towards me setting the picture on the bed she wrapped her arms around my waist and pulled me closer to her.
I was shocked to say the least, I didn't know what to do I couldn't move and I really didn't want to move.
"Willow can we just skip it ?" she asked and I kind of wondered what she was talking about.
"Skip what Tara?" I asked wondering and wanting to know.
I could feel her breath on my lips as she spoke the words I had been waiting to hear for years now, ones that I would have turned away earlier in the day but ones that were needed now.
"Can you just be kissing me?" she asked her voice shaky and I did just that, I couldn't take anymore I leaned in and kissed her with all the love I had in me, tears rolled down both of our faces mingling together, just as we did.
Slowly she moved her hands to my head and held me close, I had my hands on the back of her neck holding her tight to me. "I love you," I whispered, I couldn't help it I had to say it, and she kissed me harder and with more passion then I had felt in years.